letter number 2

Dear___,
hows life on your side of the world...
as confusing as usual? well one would only assume.

I find a comfort in you. I don't know what it is... but it makes me feel listened to and sometimes i need that.

I honestly have no clue as to what to write you... but even when i have nothing to say i don't want you to feel unloved or left alone... I know that when i am with you even if we have nothing to say i am comfortable just being around you... so i want this letter to be like that feeling! It could be a letter of blank but its still there for you... i dunno, is that weird?

Isn't it weird that we feel we have to fill every silence... i have never understood that... I crave silence usually. Even around you! don't take that in a bad way, i could spend a day talking with you and not care but the comfort of our silence... that knowledge there isn't anything to be said right now. I like that... sometimes i fill our silence with the noise of my own thoughts... Oh how you consume them! but i cant complain.

What do you think in the silence? im sure its amazing! i can sense you feel the same way when it comes to silence. you dont mention it! you accept it. even with a glance or a smile i know its fine!
Do you ever feel awkard... out of place...? I do. But with that being said it makes me feel special. It gives me a challenge to kinda prove that i can still be apart of whats going on... i feel i can learn from awkward sittuations!!! which is why i dont awkward. i refuse to be awkward. i refuse to share an awkward silence... I can sense you feel awkard sometimes! but you shouldn't! It is you that makes me feel comfortable with who i am! sure you will point out my differences and poke fun at me but you never take it to far and you know i can take! Hell i usually play along!!!

Do you find sometimes with a silence when you are alone... or even with someone you need to fill it cause sometimes your thoughts repeat themself and you are left with the annoying reminder of what you already know? i find the best silence breaker is putting on music i am passionate about!!! not only will it fill the room with the sounds of your happy but it will give you something to talk about if you ever feel like you have reached the 'awkward' silence... and as you know i LOVE to talk about my music... but you know this and are still so willing to listen... even if our tastes clash! :)

I will leave this letter hear as i am tired and feel that you may have better things to do! But know i love you. Know i am here.
Thanks for listening to me! Thank you for our silence. Thank you for being that something new and refreshing in my life!

Love, forever and after.

Sean